Though he wasn't very sexual and appeared to have no interest in sex I cannot help but have dirty fantasies about Richey Edwards
The Manics taught me that being Welsh and intelligent were good things. They also got me into politics, although I feel embarrassed that I actually vote Conservative. Despite being obviously centre-right, I really wish I could move to the left, but I just don't believe in it.
I want to apologise to both the band and their fans.
I try to stay positive and remember other aspects of Richey than the self-harm/alcoholism/depression. Wallowing helps no one, might as well channel those thoughts into productive energy. Also, I think Rachel Elias always sounds so overwhelmingly strong regarding Richey, and I also applaud Nicky because it seems his love for Richey is growing strong, and isn't affected by the distance between them. These type of things make me want to be a more worthy person myself.
In August 1995, I went on holiday to Ireland with my friend. We drove through Wales. Going over the Severn Bridge, I went cold. And then driving through Wales to Fishguard to get the ferry, I stared out of the window thinking "What will I do if I spot Richey?" Who would I tell? Would I go up to him and say, "Hey, Richey!" Or would I just leave him be? Just some random 16 year old who wouldn't be able to help you.
I wish James was my dentist. Then I wouldn't be as afraid of going!
I've been sick for years and only was introduced to the Manics just a few months ago, but sometimes I worry I'm copying Richey.
I do believe Snoopy's death was the last straw. I think there was nothing left for him, make of that what you will.
I agree with James that The Holy Bible isn't appreciated enough as a political album, as well as THB not being about Richey himself apart from 2-3 songs. I get really sensitive about most of Richey's input being viewed the wrong way because on Feb. 1st 1995. I'm sure I'll be stigmatised one way or the other for saying this... But whatevz. Happy CoR day. ;)
